A Survivor’s Story

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By Amy Temple

As most of you know I have learning disabilities.

I’ve had to deal with all kinds of discrimination and rejections for most of my life.

However, what I’m about to confess is something that I hadn’t openly talked about to many people.

In junior high, I encountered a lot of bullying and harassment. Every day I was verbally and occasionally physically harassed. I’d get called all sorts of derogatory names, mocking my learning disabilities. There were trippings, pushes, and verbal threats.

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I was so frightened to go to school. I would huddle up against the wall in between classes clutching my bookbag tightly. I would often go homesick.

The school administration really tried hard to get the abuse under control but it was a big school so there was only so much they could do.

After two years my parents finally moved away to another town.

I attended high school in a nice and quiet country town. What a relief it was to see friendly people and not be afraid I was going to be assaulted.

However, I dealt with a male student who asked me out frequently for over a year! He wouldn’t take no for an answer. I found all those familiar feelings of fear returning. I finally got a teacher to get him to back off.

I found myself dealing with some serious trauma issues. I dealt with anxiety, fear, and insecurity.

I wanted to be approved of so badly! I wanted to be free from all of my negative feelings. During my senior year, I thought maybe if I had the attention of a popular guy… all my mental problems would be over.

So, I mustered up the courage and asked one of them out.

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In the end, instead of it being lovers bliss. It ended up being a practical joke that the guy and his friend played on me. I felt like such a fool. Let me tell you that didn’t help my low self-esteem at all!

As I previously mentioned I dealt with discrimination and rejection in the workforce, too. No one would hire me because of my learning disabilities. A brilliant job opportunity fell through because co-workers lied about me.

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When I was volunteering at a local retirement home, a male resident assaulted me by groping and attempting to kiss me.

With all of the trauma, I experienced I was a mess!

I spent years reading self-help books…it was much cheaper than therapy!

I could not understand why I was being treated like I was.

  • Why was I bullied?
  • Why was I harassed?
  • Why was I assaulted?
  • What is so wrong with me that nobody would hire me?
  • Why would someone lie about me so I wouldn’t be hired at was to be my only decent chance for a job?

I found it hard to trust. I pretty much kept to myself only spending time with my family.

I had imaginings of a bigger and better life but all of what I went through kept me away from pursuing it. I spent 30 years trying to improve my life, to overcome all that happened to me.

I thought plenty of times I had been healed but recently it all came to a nasty head. All the emotions that I been feeling came out one night and I cried! I vented to God for most of the night.

As the song states “Have a little talk with Jesus, Makes it Right!” and it sure did, I hadn’t felt that clear and at peace in a very long time!

I understand I may never forget what happened to me but I can honestly say I am starting to find ways to begin the bigger and better life I have been seeking.

I have come to understand I have to take life one day at a time. I have to keep pressing forward and not look back.

To my fellow survivors…

What happened to us was not our fault! We must continue on living and not give the abusers any more power.

You are just as worthy as anyone else, hence the song from Gloria Gaynor!

I WILL SURVIVE! I DID SURVIVE & SO WILL YOU!!

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Wanna Hang Out With Me Tonight?

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Hey, Everybody!!

Okay, so it’s evident – I miss my blogging community. Like for real, for reals…..I ain’t gonna lie about it. Do I have new content? Well, not really…lol…you would think me being gone for this little period of time that I would have at least a journal full of topics but if I can be very transparent – I DON’T! ( I know, shame on me =()

I’ve been busy for sure, working on my business baby and trying to show it as much LOVEEEE as possible and in between doing that, holding down the singles ministry, coming up with content for my new business page (more on that in a jiffy) all while holding down a 9 to 5 (and did I mention parenting?, Yeah that too!), so it’s been a little challenging trying to come up with appropriate, well I hate to say that because it sounds like I post inappropriate content on just about anything – however, you would think I’d have some new content to come back and WOW you with, but nothings been coming to me.

Anywho, maybe by the time I grace the blogging stage again, I’ll have a little somethin-somethin for ya. Speaking of busy and business – I have a new facebook business page (still working on the website) for my new business Roshonda B Creative! For those of you that may be new, I took a little break from blogging to try and build up my brand (that still sounds funny to say) but it’s a writing and creative design company in where I create flyers, social media handles, writing content, simple websites, logo’s and I even do book reviews, I do a little ghostwriting as well for businesses and so much more.

I just felt the urge of God pushing me into this venture, I mean don’t get me wrong, I’ve actually been doing this for about 15+ years as a hobby. This is just the first time in history that I’m actually going full blast with it. (Pray for Me!) So on my Facebook page I post creations that I created for clients as well as do shout-outs to businesses that I’ve used or that maybe someone else could use because we’re all helpers one to the other, right?

On this page, I also give business tips (no, I’m no master or business guru) but when I see something or learn something, I want to share it with everyone else and that’s what I’ll be doing tonight, soooooo would you like to hang out with me? I’m going to go live at 7:30 pm EST tonight to talk about a recent business experience I had and how it may or can help us become better business parents. Whether you’ve been in business 30 years or just started one this year or last week. We could all use some refreshers!

So, if you want too – I’d love to see you tonight on my FB business page! It can be sorta be like a hanging out session in where you get some good information while you’re there. I’d love to see ya and have you aboard!

The link to my FB page is here: https://www.facebook.com/roshondabcreates/ 👈

I hope to see you and if you can’t make it – no worries, you can click on the link and watch the replay. Hopefully, you’re doing very well!

I’ll see you around, Ciao My Friends!!

Sunday’s Thought: What Are You Going To Do?…

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Hey, Everyone! Okay so before you ask – No, I’m officially not back yet…lol. However, do you miss me? I definitely miss you which is why I had to stick my head through the window. I’m still on hiatus, there’s a lot of things going on right now; however, with it being a new month and all, I was thinking about a FB live that I did 2 months ago and thought I’d share it with you.

It’s entitled “Finish The Assignment!” I was talking to the Lord about some things and before I could finish stating my case, this is what he told me. I don’t know how many of you have “unfinished business” that you have to do – maybe it’s a book, maybe it’s starting your own business, maybe it’s following your passion or finally completing something that you’ve put off on the back burner.

Whatever it is, 6 months have flown by and time is waiting on NO ONE! What are you going to do with the last 6 months of the year? Think about it and determine to FINISH what you started!

I pray this little video is an encouragement to you to pick up whatever it is you put down and FINISH IT because Time is waiting on NO ONE!

Talk to ya Soon!

P.S. Please excuse my hair – I should’ve left it down, it was definitely an in-between appointments stage…lol lol lol. (Oh Well, You can’t look like Angela Bassett all the time…he he)

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I Quit…And I Feel Free! by Amy Temple

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So, previously I mentioned that I’d been working for 13 years as a dog sitter for a Christian couple who live in the same residential community as my family and I. Well, it all went downhill very fast and here’s how…

Last month as I was taking the couple’s Boston Terrier puppy for a ride in its stroller, I stopped to talk to a woman who was also walking her dog.

When all of a sudden the couple’s Boston terrier puppy -who’s name shall remain anonymous at this point, jumps out of the stroller, despite having on a neck strap, in which fell completely off and goes after this woman’s dog!

Understandably the woman freaked out by the sudden action of the terrier but remained calm enough to pick up its leash and hand it to me. Afterward, what conversation we were having had now been compromised, she then took her dog and ran onto her porch, which thankfully was only a few feet away from the incident.

I felt completely horrible about the incident and apologized immensely, more times than I could count. Finally, I picked up the terrier who had seemingly calmed down, put him back into the stroller and walked away….deep down as I left the scene, I knew without a shadow of a doubt…

I was done with this job!

When I got home, my parents picked up that something was a little off with me as I still had the look of horror on my face. “What Happened? they asked. After telling them the story of the terrier and the chaos it called that day, they echoed my sentiment and agreed – It was time to quit!

Two days later, I spoke with the couple and gave my two weeks notice. However, after further discussion, we all mutually agreed that I’d be better to end the agreement immediately. In all, the agreement was peaceful and offered an open door for me to visit the puppy anytime I wanted.

When I look back on the situation, I realize that I shouldn’t have said yes when the couple asked me to return as their dog sitter for a new puppy they had gotten right after their 14-yr old Boston Terrier passed away.

I knew the hours for taking care of the puppy were going to be dreadfully long, especially since both worked full-time jobs. Honestly, I did try for several months to train him but this last incident had proved to be a little too much for me to handle.

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However, as I move on, I can’t say I have any regrets over my decision to quit. Now, I have all the time in the world to put my time and energy where it matters most and that’s with my family and my dog Echo – who is very glad I am not leaving her as often as I used to!

Now don’t get me wrong – I haven’t done away with my dog training career completely. I’m still working and do have other clients but the work is sporadic and not on a daily basis as the past couple’s were.

The puppy experience over the last few months had left me with a feeling of overwhelming anxiety – so much so, it nearly wiped me out!

But now I feel so free!

Free enough to pursue and kick my writing career up a notch! I already have several writing opportunities lined up.

Hmm! I wonder, could that be a sign from God?

I think it might be.

What do you think?

Amy is a resident of Florida.  Since 2006, she has been self-employed in the dog care field.  In May 2017, she self-published a memoir titled “I Am Not Stupid” which is available through Amazon.  She writes for seethegoodinfo, an inspirational website and the Learning Disabilities Association’s newsletter LD Source.

#Sunday’s Thought: Are You Making the “Right” Investments?

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This earth is like a marketplace; you will buy your necessities and eventually go to your home where you’ll put those things to good use, weather now or later. While that analogy is true for this earthly place, it’s a much different story when it comes to the spiritual realm.  This earth is not our permanent home, we’re only here for a short while and soon, we’ll all come face to face with the month, date and year after the short “dash” after our birth-date and that’s our demise date.

Okay, so before you give this post the “OH NO LOOK” just hear me out….

On March 31st the rap world lost a visionary, an icon of sorts, a family man and community activist by the name of Ermias Asghedom a.k.a Nipsey Hussell. I have to admit, I didn’t know him or even heard of him prior to his demise, the only person I knew that was close to him was his longtime girlfriend Lauren London, I had seen her in quite a few movies. From the video’s that I watched of him, past interviews, the couples question game he played with the love of his life and music video’s all the way down to the changes he had and was making in his community made me realize that this guy was well loved, cherished and had a big heart. Like many of us, he learned to turn a negative past into a positive future for everyone around him. He wanted to change the world by making it a better place. Nipsey was just 33 when he passed away.

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I found myself wanting to play God in this scenario and think of ways if I was God, how I would have done it differently, “Silly girl, what was I thinking!” I just hate to hear about young people dying in which shameless and admittedly I TRY to play God often in those scenarios (don’t judge me please). But I felt increasingly horrible with Nipsey for some reason as I was looking at how greatly loved he was and I found myself wishing his demise had played out differently but the bible says “Warning before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall” – before everyone leaves this earth, there always comes warning first.

If we don’t have a relationship with God or if that relationship is on again/off again, it may be very difficult to hear his warning or even see it but God doesn’t allow things to just happen to people without proper notice and that goes for everyone, including me! So, you may be saying – what does your title and Nipsey have to do with one another and it’s simple “We can’t get caught up in the things we do here on earth, but we must work on storing up investments beyond this earth” that’s when I took off my God hat and began to pray and wonder – Did Nipsey store up the right investments?


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On earth we all want to invest in something – these investments, if good – could make us very wealthy and if not, make us very poor. Most of us live on earth as if we’re never going to die, as if we’re going to live forever and we become comfortable in making this dirty place our permanent home. Thing is, people are dying younger and younger every day, most of the time without warning. When a rich man and a poor man die – it’s the first time for once that they’re in the exact same boat. Both must stand before the Lord naked and without nothing, at this point – the fame they had or didn’t have on earth is meaningless.

Psalms 49:10-14 NIV (study lesson states)

The only riches we have at the time are those we have already invested in our eternal heritage. At the time of death, each of us will wish we had invested less on earth, where we must leave it and more in heaven where we will retain if forever. To have treasure in heaven, we must place our faith in God, pledge ourselves to obey him and utilize our resources for the good of his kingdom.

It’s not that God wants us to live poor lives, oh no….he wants us to live full, healthy and prosperous lives (3 John 1:2). His desire is that we not get caught up in material things and people (1 John 2:15). We’re not perfect but we strive every day to live and be perfect even as our father in heaven is perfect. Jesus walking the earth in the flesh was the “perfect” and best exemplified example of how we should live, act, walk and speak. It’s not easy, it’s really not. As a matter of fact, it’s hard to try and live right with soooo much temptation around, I get it – trust me but as Apostle Deanna Dixon states “Every day we have to Fight” we have to fight to live right, we have to fight to keep from cursing somebody out, we have to fight to stay in our lane and quit veering over into someone else’s lane, we have to fight to keep our sanity, we have to fight to make sure we’re making the right investments (Deuteronomy 10:12).


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I pray every day that God keep me, because this sister right here – HONTAY!! My flesh can get stirred up REALLLLLL bad. I have to ask God to keep my mind on him and off of sex, OH YES!! – I didn’t say I was holier than thou! I have to ask God to keep my mind from wanting to be popular and noticed, YES! I have to ask God to keep me from going backwards into toxic relationships all because I want someone in my bed at night, I have to ask God to keep my mind and a smile on my face when I shake hands or talk to people that I KNOW DON’T LIKE OR DESPISE ME!!, I have to constantly ask for prayer to keep my attitude in check because I want to pop off….IT’S A FIGHT YA’LL! But to see Jesus one day and for him to tell me those 7 words I’m dying to hear:

“Well done my Good and Faithful Servant”

Now hearing those words would be worth it all!! I don’t know what your God affiliation is and I AM NOT trying to convert you either! but I want you to think about it. One day this earth will pass away and we will too. This earth is just a market place for goods now, nothing to be compared to the real goods we’ll have on the other side if we invest correctly.

Are you making the right investments?
Heaven & Earth will Pass away but my words WILL NEVER pass away (Matthew 24:35 NIV)

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