I Have A Big, Huge Announcement!!! – FAIL….

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Okay, let’s take a deep breath now…..because since my last post? Ya’ll really wasn’t going to hear from me again, I declared in my soul that I was just going to give up writing, PERIOD!!! Why Lord!!!! did you give me this gift to be humiliated, my writings are a BLAH, BLAH, BLAH I mean, so like – why do I write, what’s my purpose and how is that purpose serving others???????

This was just the lighter side of the conversation I had with myself during the last week….so, why did I feel that way? Well….just keep reading; here we go…

So, if you’ve been following me (avidly), then you know that I have been working on a book, entitled “Billy Wolf and the Kids of Heavenly Hills Elementary” the book is about bullying and how this one person brought doom and gloom to a school in which didn’t really have any issues, this bully taunted everyone – I mean, no one was off limits; finally someone decided to take a stand against him, someone in whom no one would have expected to take down Billy Wolf. Now, I was sooooo excited about promoting this book because I felt like it’s a topic that our world and children deal with constantly, my goal was to get the books into schools and hopefully be able to talk to kids about the effects of bullying. I got my proof copy in the mail, looked it over and was just about to push the “approve” button, but decided to wait because I had put out an ad to a couple of sites, looking for people whom would help me market it………………………….What did I do that for!

I thought that maybe, the people reading it would be able to give me an idea of the market in which I was trying to reach and make some suggestions as to where I can take it, let’s just say positive feedback wasn’t what I got back and all the excitement of telling everyone today that they can now purchase the book on Amazon and so forth – came to a screeching halt when this particular person said…

I was just wanting to know – Do you have any kids? I mean did you do research before you created this book? Kids are on a much higher reading level now, they’re into chapter books and the 6th grade is now middle school age, not elementary. And what Happened to Billy?, It seems like the story just started with him coming and there was an ending but nothing in sight to say who tried to help him – I also think your book is a little racist. 

WHAT DID YOU SAY

It took everything within me to not SCREAM!!, like really? Racist? and there comment was, “Well, it seems like you have this African-American young man, torturing the Caucasian kids” and I’m like thinking in my head, I have no idea where you seen that at  because clearly, there are other kids of a different race in the book, and why would I do that??? with trying to put this book into schools???? I made it very clear to the illustrator that I wanted the kids to be all colors because bullying affects all races, all origins, all creeds, all nationalities – it’s the one thing to me that isn’t prejudice.

But it was the way she was talking to me, like I was some 3rd grader whom needed to be punished for getting a C on my homework. She clearly over-talked me and every time I wanted to explain or say something – she wouldn’t take the time to listen and when she did; it was very brief and time to go. Another comment I got was that the book wasn’t long enough for older kids and not short enough to hold the attention span of smaller kids andddd.…the fact that I talk about faith in the book, really struck a nerve because schools have taken a backseat to religion, it has now been reduced to “a moment of silence”  I was so done, I literally went days without approving the book and just shut down in which is where the conversation at the beginning of this post came into play….

I shut down – I didn’t want to write again, I cried and cried and cried and cried; did I mention I cried? I was done….threw in the towel; was going to shut the blog down and never come back, Until – I talked to God.

Once I got over myself, It was like God brought this back to my mind: 

J.K. Rowling – the famed author behind the Harry Potter series was turned down by multiple publishers – for years! If she had given up after being rejected, we all would be like “Harry Potter” who?

The thing is, she didn’t give up! I’m sure there were many publishers whom didn’t see her vision, I mean – what type of story is this?, they probably were all saying – but the girl, kept going – she believed in herself even when no one else did, sort of remind me of the Donald Lawrence song  entitled “Encourage Yourself” in which in life is what we all will be faced to do at one point or another. So you know what I did? I replayed all of their comments over in my mind and took out the negative emotions I allowed myself to feel and made quite a few changes to the book according to the positive things that I allowed myself to see…because there were some positive ones.

And, since this book will not be able to go into schools because of the “faith” aspect of it; I embraced that as well because now, it allows me to be able to make changes according to how I feel God wanted me to make them. You see, in a sense I sort of was trying to take certain things out of the book (such as the scripture) to make it appealing to a general audience (note, I said “I”) – but maybe these comments were God’s way of showing me that I needed to be me and do it the way he wanted. So yes, Billy Wolf and the Kids is officially a christian book, that hopefully offers a little bit of funny, love, redemption, encouragement and inspiration to anyone whom decides to pick it up and give it a read.

So, while the BIG announcement I had – did not turn out the way I wanted and was an epic fail. I’m encouraged today, it will be okay….I’m taking my time and going through every page, bit by bit and when the time comes to officially make a HUGE announcement?

I will be completely ready this time….

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Roshonda N. Blackmon – Creator of A Blog, A Magazine. It’s JustsumInspiration, Author, Speaker & Encourager

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Billy “The Big Bully” Wolf & The Dangers of Silence by Roshonda N. Blackmon

Not one person liked Billy Wolf or the way he treated others, but they’d dare not say anything.

Excerpt from “Billy Wolf & The Kids of Heavenly Hills Elementary” 

As a child growing up, there were quite a few issues that occurred in my life in which I felt like my voice either went unheard or numb to the world around me. I grew up in a household with a bully step-father whom fought my mom to no end, sometimes those fights ended in blood shed, I watched as he hit, degraded and shamed her; whether in public, in front of his or her family and most heartbreakingly, in front of me and my two sisters. Where was my voice to speak up? In this case it was helpless.

I remember being in school, third grade – the teacher would have us line up behind each other once we got out of the bathroom and had a water break. One of my male classmates in whom would purposely stand behind me every time, would touch me inappropriately, he would lean up against me really close, take his hand and dig in my derriere, making his way to touch other parts of me that I didn’t even know was supposed to be touched. This made me feel very uncomfortable and weird. Why was he doing this? Should I say something about it? Would he deny it? Would my voice matter? Where was my voice to speak up? In this case it was scared.

For a couple of years, I was sexually molested by my step-father, my mothers second husband. At first I didn’t know what was going on, he would make my sisters go outside to play when my mother would leave the house and he would come into my room and act as if we were playing a game of hide and seek, thing is – he would find me every-time and my punishment for getting found?, became a reward for him to do what he wanted to do to me. Should I tell my mother? Would she believe me? Would he deny it? Was this supposed to happen? In some sense, was I asking for it and didn’t know it? Where was my voice to speak up? In this case it was numb.

In school, I was bullied by kids – I guess you can say I was the weakest link. I had issues going on at home and issues going on at school, I had no friends but a made up imaginary friend named “Jeannine” in whom I confided and talked to quite a bit. I was always afraid to speak up because I always felt like there would be repercussions for my actions and who would protect me? At the end of the day, It was my word vs. their word. I was hopeless and felt as if they were more powerful and because of that “The Silence” went on for years and years. Until one day – I got the courage to SPEAK UP!

That is the reasoning for me writing the book “Billy Wolf & The Kids of Heavenly Hills Elementary” while the book may seem juvenile, it’s a story of how we as a society can allow one thing or one person take the most powerful thing to ever grace our body away from us and that’s OUR VOICE! Let me tell you, Bullying takes place every….single….day in our society and our lives – you don’t have to be a child to experience it as you have adult bullies as well. Why should we allow one person to have so much power over us, a power that cripples us for years.

ONE VOICE CAN MAKE ALL THE DIFFERENCE!

A difference that will not only empower you, but empower others around you.

Sometimes people are just waiting on someone else to make a BOLD move. I tell my son and daughter all the the time. Don’t be afraid to raise your hand in school to ask a question (they would silence themselves and not do it, afraid that they would hold up the class or that someone would get mad at them) but I told them, the same question you are asking? Is the question that someone else is afraid to ask – so by you asking it’s not only helping you….but them as well.

My hope is that this book will encourage, inspire and motivate kids as well as adults to stand up and use the most powerful tool God gave us and that’s OUR VOICE!

Illustrations were done by the amazingly talented Vineet Siddhartha a.k.a yangvineet @ fiverr.com

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Coming Soon 2018 – To Amazon and a Bookstore near You!

Roshonda N. Blackmon – Creator of JustsumInspiration, Author, Speaker & Encourager

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