As a child growing up, there were quite a few issues that occurred in my life in which I felt like my voice either went either unheard or numb to the world around me. I grew up in a household with a bully step-father who fought my mom to no end, sometimes those fights ended in bloodshed, I watched as he hit, degraded and shamed her; whether in public, in front of his or her family and most heartbreakingly, in front of me and my two sisters. Where was my voice to speak up? In this case, it was helpless.
Not one person liked Billy Wolf or the way he treated others, but they’d dare not say anything.
Excerpt from “Billy Wolf & The Kids of Heavenly Hills Elementary”
As a child growing up, there were quite a few issues that occurred in my life in which I felt like my voice either went unheard or numb to the world around me. I grew up in a household with a bully step-father whom fought my mom to no end, sometimes those fights ended in blood shed, I watched as he hit, degraded and shamed her; whether in public, in front of his or her family and most heartbreakingly, in front of me and my two sisters. Where was my voice to speak up? In this case it was helpless.
I remember being in school, third grade – the teacher would have us line up behind each other once we got out of the bathroom and had a water break. One of my male classmates in whom would purposely stand behind me every time, would touch me inappropriately, he would lean up against me really close, take his hand and dig in my derriere, making his way to touch other parts of me that I didn’t even know was supposed to be touched. This made me feel very uncomfortable and weird. Why was he doing this? Should I say something about it? Would he deny it? Would my voice matter? Where was my voice to speak up? In this case it was scared.
For a couple of years, I was sexually molested by my step-father, my mothers second husband. At first I didn’t know what was going on, he would make my sisters go outside to play when my mother would leave the house and he would come into my room and act as if we were playing a game of hide and seek, thing is – he would find me every-time and my punishment for getting found?, became a reward for him to do what he wanted to do to me. Should I tell my mother? Would she believe me? Would he deny it? Was this supposed to happen? In some sense, was I asking for it and didn’t know it? Where was my voice to speak up? In this case it was numb.
In school, I was bullied by kids – I guess you can say I was the weakest link. I had issues going on at home and issues going on at school, I had no friends but a made up imaginary friend named “Jeannine” in whom I confided and talked to quite a bit. I was always afraid to speak up because I always felt like there would be repercussions for my actions and who would protect me? At the end of the day, It was my word vs. their word. I was hopeless and felt as if they were more powerful and because of that “The Silence” went on for years and years. Until one day – I got the courage to SPEAK UP!
That is the reasoning for me writing the book “Billy Wolf & The Kids of Heavenly Hills Elementary” while the book may seem juvenile, it’s a story of how we as a society can allow one thing or one person take the most powerful thing to ever grace our body away from us and that’s OUR VOICE! Let me tell you, Bullying takes place every….single….day in our society and our lives – you don’t have to be a child to experience it as you have adult bullies as well. Why should we allow one person to have so much power over us, a power that cripples us for years.
ONE VOICE CAN MAKE ALL THE DIFFERENCE!
A difference that will not only empower you, but empower others around you.
Sometimes people are just waiting on someone else to make a BOLD move. I tell my son and daughter all the the time. Don’t be afraid to raise your hand in school to ask a question (they would silence themselves and not do it, afraid that they would hold up the class or that someone would get mad at them) but I told them, the same question you are asking? Is the question that someone else is afraid to ask – so by you asking it’s not only helping you….but them as well.
My hope is that this book will encourage, inspire and motivate kids as well as adults to stand up and use the most powerful tool God gave us and that’s OUR VOICE!
Illustrations were done by the amazingly talented Vineet Siddhartha a.k.a yangvineet @ fiverr.com
Roshonda N. Blackmon – Creator of JustsumInspiration, Author, Speaker & Encourager
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